skool is kool

so whenever this time of the year rolls around, i get nostalgic for the start of school, and when i get notstalgic for school, i start to wonder if i should go back to school.

but this year has been a little different in that i've been nostalgic for the actual beginning of college, as in going for the first time as a freshman. oh, i loved going to college then. everything was so new, so fresh. and even though i was going to school six hours away from home, i never really felt homesick. i loved meeting new people, and my classes were really frickin' easy (though never again).

i've been torturing myself by looking at all the freshmen's facebook photos of their cutely decorated dorm rooms, which is somehow making nostalgic for the dorm life. before you judge me for how much of a sad little person i've become, who can argue with having a meal plan and cleaning lady?

thinking about all of this makes me even sadder because i know i can never recapture that excitement. it was exciting because it WAS so different than anything i'd ever experienced. with four year of school under my belt, nothing about college would ever be new again.

i'd feel stupid going back to undergrad again with all those perky annoying 18-year-olds. plus the "non-traditional" older undergrads always weirded me out a little bit. that leaves grad school, and there's nothing exciting about grad school.

i guess i don't really know what i'd study anyway (which makes me the perfect candidate to be an undergrad again). i might as well keep working and, i don't know, pay my mortgage rather than school bills.